Through my character Wessi I could really focus on ‚'being back' ‚ 'being Mongolian' and I thought to myself that this is such a strong feeling, I have to give in. Everyday I was with the horses, felt the earth, the dust underneath me. That's all what’s real to me.
I loved watching movies and the endless deep talks with my loved ones about what we experienced with it. I think that really attracted me as strong as the film itself, the conversation. The cinematic aesthetic is something I understood much later, what it produced inside of me: as it clashed with my personal way of feeling and attitude.
Black in many ways has been very much a denied color in our society through history and religion. I really like fairy tales but when it starts to influence my life so senselessly without any point and when it pretends to be something what it isn’t, you need to reveal its fakeness. I love black. It is for me a strong color, full of determination and yet so free. Like the power I feel inside of me as a woman.
I never wanted anything. The process of making a film is so naive, I write what I observe and what catches my attention, something I know of that it has a relevance and honesty. So I try to express it. When I empower someone to reflect the own being then of course it is such a great thing.